just bitching….

yanno that phrase  “if wishes were horses, i’d ride forever”…? that’s me these days.  i wish, i wish,  i wish…

but, the reality is that i have to deal with the fact that i’m in this town for another three months, doing work that i don’t love anymore (for a variety of reasons i won’t get into here…) wanting to be elsewhere, with other people, doing other things…getting on with my life dammit!

now, don’t get me wrong. there a few people here whose company i really enjoy but we will continue our friendships after i leave. we’ll be able to spend time together in the city. but that’s about it. there not much else here for me right now….just a house i don’t want, a job i don’t like (and yes a few people, i’d like to be farther away from…..)

but…i keep telling myseff that i’m here for a reason. besides the fact that i made this choice, there is something in this time for me to learn. well, i’m not so sure it’s patience. but, maybe months from now, i’ll look back and see what it is/was, and be thankful…maybe…..

yahoo…!

i did it!

i was just offered the job i wanted in vancouver! i am so damn happy!…it’s so good. i know the work, i have more flexibility in my time, and i can do my masters for free…it’s good all around!

 next step…sell the house, and i’m outta here!

the quick and dirty…

well…here goes….

wickedly fun week-end in the city…i could go into details, but you’d never think the same of me… . let’s just say, some playful people and a little exploration… intrigued yet?

other than that, i am beyond tired, and no it’s not just from the week-end… i’ve been battling fatigue for a week now, the aching body, swiss cheese memory kind of fatigue. there is a lot going on mentally/emotionally and it is taking it’s toll i suppose. could it be that my continued living here is sucking every ounce of joy from my life? possibly….but there is more, and the catch 22 is that i’m just too tired to deal with it….

ah…i just want to go back to my week-end…maybe a little more on that when i’m energized again…

random thoughts on a stormy night….

friday night…curled up in my chair relaxing, thinking of the coming week and beyond….

this week i head to vancouver again…..a meeting, a couple of workships to give, a couple of friends to spend time with, an opportunity to maybe make a new friend or two…. and a quick trip to victoria for brunch (you can ask, but i’m not going to tell why….). i’ll just say that i’m looking forward to the coming travel….

and the beyond….? plans for the holidays…a trip to baltimore/washington dc….new years eve in vancouver… spring vacation…selling my house…new work experiences to wrap up my 11 years here…and then moving south to a new job, a rented apartment, and the my life’s next adventure….